Catalyst 🧪

Things are great until you spend some peaceful time with yourself. Despite having some good phases, sometimes our minds messed up things. It could be possible many haven't experienced it yet. But it is just a phase of everyone's life. Someday it will come and pass and teach us so many important lessons of life.

While going through this phase, I get to know that we all are running away from some brutal facts of our life. However, they are hard to admit and harder to figure out. And the toughest job is dealing through this while pretending everything is fine. If we get through this phase we will be called strong, otherwise, we end up knowing weak. But why do such things meant to happen? Why is there no cheat code to bypass this? Or maybe some time travel machine to escape this.

Catalyst, I have learned about this term in chemistry where it helps in altering the rate of any chemical reaction. In the same manner, to go through this phase, we also need such catalysts in our life. Without them probably we might end up in a loop like myself who is still struggling to get out of this. For around 4 years or maybe more, I am still fighting hard to get out of this loop. And every Friday night, I find myself again at the point where I started from. I am uncertain what's wrong and how could it be fixed, and there is this feeling of unsatisfaction, which is quite familiar now. I am even unsure what is actually unsatisfying me. I really wish, I could have had such a catalyst in my life, which Harry had. Cause with the pass of time I am picturing myself like Snape.

Despite giggling all time,
still searching for peace in mind.

Yet people are claiming,
everything is fine.


- Gaurav Purwar